I cant go with Collins, it’s the principle.  I NEEDS ANOTHER BOY DATE.

But I dont wanna go with another boy simply to spite him.  Revenge for Prom ?  Nah, its sweet enough to know he didnt have as much fun as he couldve AHEM AHEM.  Its dignity.  Its my fucking dignity.  I need to prove that I am capable to catching fish.  Ok true that metaphor sucked, but I hope you get what I mean.

Ok so I typed up this whole thing about a dilemma but not really just that high school problems are universal and it pertains to a certain friend of mine & I wish not to disclose such information & now I feel kinda dumb because I think people read this ? 

What is the right thing to do when you are hooking up with somebody but you are not in a relationship with that person…  & that person just so happens to be your typical boy.  Should you be worried that he may be checking out other “options” aka ladiieeeess ? Or should you be satisfied that he cares about you enough and likes spending time with you ? Would you think about it merely in terms of your time together and nothing beyond that or would you WORRY about what he’s doing in your time away?  After all, there are no strings attached, so technically he can do whatever he wants.  It’s definitely a feminist issue.

So I argued with Collins today & I actually WON.  Yay me.  It was supposed to be about politics & whether America is ready for a woman president… It became a gender discussion.  He said women were nuts & I stood firm in my stance that men are equally as emotionally impulsive as women but as a society our perception has been distorted and we have a blind spot for the insane derisiveness of men due to historical incrimination of women due to their traditional inferiority.  Hilary has just as much potential at a successful presidency as Obama or McCain.  McCain sounds more presidential, though.  Nice discussion though, that was good.

Im satisfied, I’ve figured.  Whatever happens happens.  Let’s just go with the flow & so far the flowin’s good.  Let it lead me to happiness.  Right now, I’m halfway where I wanna be.  Where do I wanna be? I wanna be on top of a mountain, eleven days from today, high as a kite.  I wanna get so fucked up I’ll start to question red and green.  Out of my mind, man after APs are done I’m good for about a week then stupid fucking Decathlon ggrrrr  Im only joining cuz I’ll have nothing better to do next year… But what was I saying?  Oh yes, let’s get wasted, baby.